My Psychosis Dream

Have any of you heard of those psychosis patients believing they’re the messiah or something similar, like god perhaps? Well, Im one of those people. I know, crazy eh, and the thing Im most astounded by was what happened during this adventure. One day I was smoking weed with my friend, shocker I have psychosis now, anyways something happened that made me believe I was something more than nothing. Suddenly I felt invigorated with energy, I felt like I was on top of the world, and to be clear not because I was high, but because something sparked spiritually In me, suddenly I felt like I understood a whole new world even though everything felt the same. I learnt something that day, something Ill never forget, It was about peoples feelings and how they resonate through vibrations towards other people, I guess you could call this a spiritual enlightenment. I actually had encountered a sort of enlightened state twice in my life, this one is a little easier to accept as spiritual enlightenment. My life after this first enlightenment went completely to shit. I got psychosis which has some pretty scary features, Like being afraid of your own thoughts, and believing you’re the ugliest person in the world, but you know what I can say out of psychosis. I deserved to feel that way, honestly everyone deserves to feel like the ugliest person in the world because do you know why? People are so absolutely horrible to each other that were so bad we drive people to kill themselves rather than be with a loving or caring family, and there's others where they have no family to turn to, because as people they just love to push people away and make others feel like shit inside.   

Honestly, the world needs to change, and fast. How I imagine the perfect world is everyone simply loving each other, having the actual want to show people care, and doing life things like work or volunteering not as a chore but as a way to be together and make everyday a great time that at one point we can say I WANT to go back to work. And trust me its rare to find someone who's that  kind of naturally beautiful, someone who takes their time to make others happy deserves to live a great life and we need to repay those people with the love and respect they deserve. My goal by the end of this book is for people to say, I want to be more spiritual, to help people, because they deserve to be loved.