Psychosis Dream 2.

Now it's my turn to talk a little more about my story, how many people in the world see psychosis as a black line? What I mean is, seeing a person with psychosis and automatically assuming they mean or are less to society because of this mental illness, it does debilitate the person temporarily but they never leave from doing necessities of life. My case may be different from others though, where my little journey perfectly coincided with my life, i tend to think of it as my perfectly spiritual journey if you don’t mind, and Ill explain why, when I achieved my first enlightening experience. What was going on was me and my friend spent the night hanging out, playing video games, and smoking weed, the night ended with me trying to go to bed when I suddenly felt refreshed and full of energy, I learnt about vibrations and feelings and also that I was a Buddha. After that first enlightenment I instantly did my research and It turned out I believed I was the Maitreya, and also figured that I had thought with the eightfold path my entire life. What I call what happened next my “Buddha Journey”, One night I felt the overwhelming urge to go for a walk, because I had walked the night before I figured Id do it the same way, where I followed the love in music to see where It lead me,and honestly It lead the most unbelievable night for me. Tonight I decided to follow the love in a different direction, It followed me towards the moon. And it was the most beautiful sight, the moon had this radiating blue butterfly that glowed over the moon. It was the most exciting experience because it was something I can't say I actually expected, and even more happened that night. Later after following the music around my town it lead perfectly to a playground, with three red stars above the playground in a perfect triangle, I never understood how I was seeing this but it was the most spiritual experience of my life.

My psychosis was one of the craziest most eye opening experiences of my life, my entire life I never believed In anything, like I said Im a straight atheist, until psychosis took hold on me. I have never believed in so much in my entire life. I believed my guitar had a soul and that I could hear her soul talking to me while I played it, I believed I was a son of god, Death, Satan, a dark angel, God, God’s lover, God’s worst enemy, in a previous life that I was an Aztec god, that Im the chosen one, absolutely everything you could believe In for being the center of the universe I believed it. One thing psychosis isn't is a black line, I believe everything has a purpose and that if you have psychosis there's an outcome specifically for you that is supposed to come out of it. Over time I've learnt to separate my beliefs from who I really am and what I believe in, and can now say I believe that I am spiritually Maitreya, not the center of the world, I believe I'm purely someone who is only loving, and honestly I can say everyone has it in them to be their own special God or Maitreya because that's where our potential lies.